Tuesday, October 30, 2012

All So True...

I came across a number of graphics that all rang so true for me and hit me in my core. Too good not to share:



Monday, October 29, 2012

That Will Smith Is Pretty Lyrical...

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Saturday, October 27, 2012

If This Is The Guideline...

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...then my heart has been broken for almost as long as I've been alive. When I was 10 years old, there was a moment of time when my dad "cheated" on me in a way with his mistress' son. Even now when I even think about or share the story, there is an instant stabbing in my heart of pain, betrayal and hurt. Surprisingly, at least to me when I think about it, it almost hurts worse than the death of my father...and that happened traumatically. This graphic actually explains so much...I've never healed from my first betrayal...

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Around the Web

These are some graphics that I came across either on FB, my blog reading or my current obsession...Pinterest.  Unfortunately, I don't know the source of these images, otherwise I would happily give credit.

Monday, October 15, 2012


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The Place I'm In...

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This chick in the photo is not me lounging about on a hammock, though I really wish it was.  When I see photos like this I think about my own trip to lands of fantasy beaches...otherwise known as Fiji.  It was a transitional time for me.  I was very spiritually open at the time, having worked on my personal development aggressively for about a year or so prior, and I had my mind as open as my spirit with thoughts of anything being possible.  Considering that I found myself in Fiji at all pretty much validated that notion.  

Why am I bringing this up now?

Well, you see, I'm finding myself in kind of a transitional space.  Right at the beginning of the transition really, and I'm not quite sure what I'm transitioning into.  I just know intuitively (and physically and emotionally too) there's a pretty significant change in play.  You wanna know the interesting event that I believe brought about this shifting in my world?  The heartbreak and the healing of it over the last several months that I've been writing about (and probably annoying you all with).  When something happens that shakes up your world, that shakes up your belief system, that may even break you to a certain extent, it changes who you are whether you want it to or not.  You start to question and re-evaluate...everything.

When I was sick with chronic fatigue syndrome, it wasn't necessarily one event that brought me down.  I had some time and a number of emotionally traumatizing losses that eased me into it even though I didn't realize that's what was happening.  It wasn't immediately devastating like the heartbreak of a few months ago.  This time was different than that and yet very familiar at the same time.

And then I figured out what my current state reminded me of...the day my dad died and the aftermath of that.  The immediate devastating shock of it all.  Like somewhere deep in my subconscious I may not have been all that surprised looking back, but I had been shutting the warnings down from my subconscious for so long that when reality hit, it was like being launched against a concrete wall from a cannon.  Truth be told, physically and emotionally it very much felt that way as well.  And then this numbing sadness where all of my senses and emotions felt muted overtakes you.  And you feel stuck not knowing how to move forward from it.

Well after about a month of feeling stuck in this wasteland of emotion, I mentally took an inventory of every therapy I've ever used to bring me back to me...and this time I kept coming back to craniosacral therapy.  You can google it for the specifics, but the way I look at it is a combination of acupressure therapy and energy healing.  And like anything related to energy healing, in order for it to actually be effective you have to be open to it.  So that's what I've been doing for the last few weeks. I've had about 3 sessions, and I've felt a little more weight has been lifted from my chest.  I've felt myself able to breathe a little easier, sleep a little better, and begin thinking a little more clearly as well.

And now I'm back to just considering certain things coming my way a little more carefully and letting other things flow a little more rather than holding on to them too tightly.  And it seems that the things that are supposed to be in my life are...and those that aren't are finding their way out.  I think it's going to continue to be a bit of a process, but I'm finally moving forward.

By the way, thank you to the few of you that have sent me kind messages throughout the last few months.  I appreciate it more than I can express here.

Friday, October 12, 2012

All The Right Words...

“You’re going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it’s always their actions you should judge them by. It’s actions, not words, that matter.”

Nicholas Sparks

Don't "Call Me Maybe"

This totally made me laugh out loud.  But seriously...

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Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Is It Just Me....

Or do you visualize every scene in your head while reading this too? I will say that in every one of these iconic scenes I do wish I was living it every single time I watch those movies.  In all fairness, I have had moments that were better than an 80's movie...one very recently...involving a rose. :)

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I Want To Be Claire Huxtable When I Grow Up...

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Every year around this time…when the leaves change color, the weather gets a bit cooler, the skies darken a little earlier…I have a natural inclination to want to nest, essentially to prepare to hunker down for the winter.  I see the school supplies filling up the aisles in the stores, the Halloween (and nowadays Christmas as well) decorations popping up, and quite honestly I start thinking about wanting to be a wife and mother versus the career woman I am now.  Now don’t go and get all feminist on me.  I’m not discounting what I have, and I’ve made choices in my life to have the independence I have now, but I’ve had my moments.  I’m a multi-faceted woman, and I want it all.  Maybe not all at once, but I want to experience it all.

I want to be Cub Scout mom, Brownie mom, host sleepovers, water fights and birthday parties.  I want to have a clean house and dinner waiting on the table when my husband comes home.  I want to know what that’s like.  I want to experiment with recipes and host a poker night or jam session at my house for the couples/parents while the kids play in the backyard.  I still want to have something of my own…my own business or the career I have now as well.  Basically, I want the freakin’ Cosby show household.  You thought I was going to say the Cleavers, huh?  Don’t forget…Claire Huxtable was a lawyer and a pretty awesome mom on top of it.  I never wanted to be June Cleaver.  I wanted to be Claire Huxtable growing up.

I know from all my personal development work I shouldn’t be focusing on what I don’t have.  That that type of thought is just focusing from a place of lacking something and blah blah blah, but I’m human.  And the skies are getting darker earlier and for longer periods of the day.  And the leaves are changing color and falling from the trees.  And school has started.  And the holiday decorations are out.  And I just want to know what it’s like to be Claire Huxtable.

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