Friday, May 25, 2012

On My Mind...

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I have SO many things going on in my mind right now, and it's making me exhausted. What's going on in that noggin of mine? Well, pick a subject. It seems I have thoughts running around in there concerning every aspect of my life. Not one area seems settled at the moment. Not one. That's not to say that things aren't calm in at least one area of my life. It just doesn't feel like it in my head...or my heart.

I keep hearing, "Don't overthink it, Michelle" going 'round and 'round in my ears every time I sit still and let my thoughts take control...

How long can I financially last if another project doesn't come around?

Did I disappoint him because something seemed a little off at times when I was with him?  I hate disappointing anyone, especially him.

What is going on in my client's head and why do I feel like she's not as forthcoming as I had previously given her credit?

I'm tired of working for someone else, but then what else would I do?

I wish my mom would go out and find her happiness...at least make an attempt at it...

These are just a few of the questions/topics/thoughts floating around my head at any given time these last couple of weeks.  As in control as I appear to everyone (and I'd like to think that for the most part I actually am in control), there are times I wish I could hand over the reins to someone and ask them to take care of me for a while...make all the decisions.  Have you ever felt that way?  Just hand it all over and have someone else decide everything for a little while...or even just ask you what you want and then go about putting forth the effort in making it happen and you not having to lift a finger.

Although it might read that way in my blog, I don't really get to this point that often. Not this point.  My spirit's been injured.  Is there something to fix that?

I'm heading to Seattle tonight for a quick trip and an attempt at a little R&R over the Memorial Day weekend with my mom.  Granted it would probably be more relaxing if I went alone.  It usually is.  But I kinda feel like I need my mommy with me this weekend, and I know she needs me.



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