Tuesday, March 6, 2012

What's On My Mind Today

So I've been thinking or reminiscing a lot about my most recent weekend with my someone special. During that weekend he made some observations about me...some things about me that I would have thought would annoy him (so I've kept it to a minimum) or some things about myself that would mortify me if I thought he knew about them.  You know, some of the things you tend to reserve to do for when you are alone.

....and you thought I was gonna give you specific examples...yeah right.


So he's randomly told me about these observations over the course of our time together...the most mortifying reveal happening recently...and prefaced these observations as being the most adorable things ever and increased his appeal for me.  Like..."while you sleeping you did the cutest thing..."

First of all, I trust him.  Obviously, otherwise he would NEVER see anything that might be compromising to me - even in the throws of pure exhaustion.  But I'm kind of shell shocked a bit that he thinks these things about me are attractive...in any kind of way.  That's new.  Brand spanking new for me to experience. 

And you know, what might be cute during this extended "honeymoon" phase of discovering each other could easily become the most annoying trait(s) ever at some point.  I know I'm getting way ahead of myself and visualizing everything between now and downhill...which is bad...really bad.  But when you've never known a relationship to go anywhere but downhill...uphills or no hills are pretty hard to see from here.  And although my mind is going in this direction, I'm also making a great effort not to look too far past today with him.  There are so many reasons why this shouldn't work out.  So many reasons.  But for whatever reason, it's working out right now.  And it's working REALLY well.  This too is also brand spanking new for me.  I'm trying though.  Boy am I trying.

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