Monday, March 5, 2012

Checking In...

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I haven't disappeared. Although on some days I wish I was invisible - like today.  I had a really bad case of insomnia last night, so 4-5 hours of sleep makes for a tired, cranky Monday morning.  I've just been doing a lot of soul searching, and it's hard to know what should and shouldn't be disclosed on a public forum.  I mean, once you put it out there for the world to see, it really does stay out there in perpetuity.  And there are some ideas, emotions and disclosures about myself that I want to remain just mine.  Permanently.  so to avoid having diarrhea of the fingers and clicking "Publish" without a second thought, I just felt it was better to just not post anything, until I could do so and not have to think about what I was typing every other sentence.

So what has been going on?  A short list:

  • Work drama - the likes of which I haven't seen since high school.  Some people really never outgrow adolescent behavior, do they?  It's been a really long time...and I mean a REALLY long time since I've come across such blatant selfishness and immaturity in a professional setting, so this all came as a bit of a shock to c'est la vie.  I know some of you are thinking...if it's been that long since you've dealt with it, you are way lucky.  Yes, I am fully aware and am grateful.
  • Avoiding the raging flu/really nasty cold viruses that have literally everyone around me has been getting.  I feel like I should be immune to all things viral after the stomach flu that wouldn't die hit me back in January, but I've been pumping 1000 mg of Vitamin C in daily just in case.  So far it seems to be working.  *fingers crossed*
  • Trying really hard to not continue to fall for my manfriend and failing miserably at it.  Miserably.  Why would I not want to fall?  Well now see this would be one of those things that I don't necessarily want to put out there.  For eternity.  To be discovered and rehashed at random points throughout the rest of my life.  If he wants to know, he can ask me.  And I'll tell him.  Does he already know I'm trying not to fall for him?  Probably.
What else has been going on?

Well, just  a general clearing out the clutter in my physical and emotional surroundings.  This de-cluttering - well it's not altogether that easy as many can attest to, I'm sure.  But it's time.  Actually it's long overdue.  So I'm doing it.  Slowly, but it's happening.

Hopefully at some point I will get back to - get inspired to - post more regularly.  I just need to clean out all of this "junk" first...and I don't mean transfer it from one place to here.  :)


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